I had an episode. It's a regular episode that I have often. Does this happen to you? Deadlines approach... commissions on the go... mothering and housewifery taking regular priority 24/7... creative juices flowing but no time for me to make them real. I feel a sense of panic. I get edgy. In my teens I used to smoke. This feels a lot like the same type of withdrawal, and I just need a 'hit' of fulfillment that my list of responsibilities simply cannot satisfy. I try to resist the creative urge but my priorities become further and further out of reach. I get testy and end up accomplishing nothing. Finally, I drop everything, head outside and just start stitching - for me - with no particular goal in mind.
Aaahhh it feels good. Gee, I love hand quilting! I'm grounded again and easily managed to complete a couple of projects in one afternoon. I wanted to believe that 'On Floral Road' was done, but I knew something was lacking in this piece. Now it has a nice lush foreground. It just popped to life with the right hand stitches.
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| hand stitching in the grasses of the forefront |
I have to remember that when it comes to creativity and inner tension, I need to always take time to put me first, albeit briefly. Now I'm back on track! (A good run outside has the same results FYI).
